First Step

I'm taking this process one step at a time. I've realized that in the end of everything, I'm only going to have myself to depend on. For the sake of myself, I know I just have to stay strong and hope for the best in everything that's going to happen next. For years of my life, I admit I haven't really been the best at relationships. For one, I'm the attached jealous type. And I know that they're both bad habits I need to learn to get over. Letting go and moving on is my most dreaded part of relationships. Breakups are probably one of my weakest low points. (That and death) I also tend to act a little (or very) immature while I'm trying to overcome sadness in all sorts of ways. But really, I don't know how else to act when I lose something(someone) I put all my trust in. I can't say I was the perfect one in the relationship, because I know for a fact that I was far from perfect and I made way more mistakes than I should have. But nonetheless, it's still a hard fact to accept, that everything I believed in, is gone. Believe it or not, I guess I'm doing my best to just suck it up and try to not let this whole thing get the best of me. I'm trying to see it as an opportunity to possibly start new. Well, not completely new.. just catch up on the old I guess and improve with some new. My main focus will be family, friends, school, and practice. They're my necessities for my future, and in my future.. I plan to be happy. And maybe one day, whether it's him or not.. some one will come my way and join me in my happy life, to make me even happier. So this.. is my "pursuit of happyness". One day, someday, sooner or later, I know for a fact, that Ronylyn Tayco Monis, WILL BE HAPPY. I'm already one step closer...