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Gettin' Up

This is officially the first summer since 

the summer after I graduated high school 

where I'm actually taking a break. I deserve it.

&I'm fucking stoked !

My life's been on this high speed chain of changes.

A fine fine set of changes, might I add.

New room. New car. New school (hopefully).

Lately, I've been working harder than hardly working.

Ironic, though, considering I'm currently jobless.

Whatevers though, the cash will find me one day.

Oh, and that boy who's my friend 

and is mighty best at being my friend..

has been nothing but awesome to me. 

He keeps me going. We keep each other going. 

&Together, we're going onto our third summer 

and celebrating our 2 years on 

June 24, 2009. Better believe it. :]

<3

Life is a blessing filled with more blessings.

Be thankful. We have it good. Even when it 

seems like someone's out there 

dedicated to make us miserable.

Just keep holdin' on to me

"Cause I'll pull down a cloud for you 
I'll circle the stars and bring you one back."

Sometimes, I just don't think you quite

understand how much I do & would do for you.

Dirty looks & bad attitudes weren't really

what I had in mind for a 'thank you'.

Whatevers though. If that's what I

deserve to you, then so be it.

What Makes Me Happy

Our mini indoor picnic

because it's been summer hot

for the past couple of days.

Spicy yellowtail roll, spicy scallop roll, 

&10pcs of yellowtail sushi<3

Love him.

Life's Tough

all i want to do is eat my life away.
i don't know where i'm going anymore.
it's a very sad fact.
:[

The Best I Ever Had

Happy Anniversary Ryan Aquino !
22 Months. 2 Years just around the corner.

We don't celebrate these month ones
that much anymore. But the everyday smiles,
laughs, & adventures are more than good enough.

I love my boyfriend & he loves me.
Basically, that's all that matters<3

Boxing

up my room.
Never thought it would be
the hardest thing. I need more boxes.
Tossing a bunch of old things. If you're
down, stop by and take what you want.
FOR FREE. It would help me a lot ):
Not that I have splendid things to offer.
Worked this whole weekend
&being sick made it hell. I'm restless
because I wake up in the middle of
the night either needing to blow my
waterfall nose or to cough up a storm.

What I would looooove to be doing
instead of being sick & boxing up my room:
-relaxing in a new room
-reading a good book (or at least attempt to
find one that interests me)
-discover new cuddling positions with my b !
-get lost in the woods (going to the zoo would do too)
but what would sum up what i REALLY uuurge to do is:
GOING SOMEWHERE NEW
TO DO SOMETHING NEW
<3
or at least something close

Spring Spring Spring

type it a couple of times & it the
word starts to look odd. Hate when
that happens. Especially on SAT-typa tests.
When it comes to the spelling section and
you write a word a couple of times to see
which is the right way to spell it.. then
every option just starts to look wrong.
): hahah. just a bit of randomness to start this off.

What did I do on my spring break ?
1. Be lazy and play poppppin omg games online (:
2. Finish the scrapbook just in time for Love's birthday.
3. NFG, Bayside, SYG concert @ the HOB. <3333
4. The Heist = bust bust bust ! Not our cup-a-tea anymore ):
5. Parties with familiar friendly faces !
6. Badlands. One of the funnest days.
7. Monis residence renovation

Pretty sad that I didn't go to the beach this spring break..
but all the other events sure did make up for it. Particularly
the pipe. Thought I was supposed to start school on Tuesday
but got the good news that it was Cesar Chavez Day. So now,
I go back tomorrow. Chill schedule so I'm not complaining too much.

this week :
-trim/dye hair
-blow my paycheck on PLASTIC CITY &spring dresses
-gym gym gym !


goodnight. school in the morning. yay ):

Without a Doubt

all the hard work put into his present
was definitely worth the reaction.
the day turned out better than i
had expected. &i'm glad !


thank you to everyone who contributed
to the scrapbook. he loved it (:
couldn't have done it without you.

once again, happy 19th birthday
ryan martin aquino. you got the best
because you deserved the best.
have a swell last teenage year<3>
i love you.

The Buzz

Finals ended on Thursday
In general, 11hrs+ of studying
seemed to have paid off.
or at least I hope it did.
Finished my hours of volunteering
and turned in my letter to
the nursing department.
My heart races every time I
go up the elevator to that room. ):
WHATEVER THO,
spring break!

MAJOR construction going on at
the Monis residence.
Spring cleaning at its best for sure.

Poopie, my deaf/semi-blind/old, pup
passed away this morning. Poor little old
dogg... I was just getting used to him.
The way he'd stare at me as I got out
of my car.. or how he would pant & wobble
his way over towards me just to say hello.
RIP. You made me fall in love with you.

In 1 hour, it will be the 19th birthday
of THEE RYNSKT, RYAN|SKEETSKEET
Whatever you call him..
give him a greeting & wish him the best.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY
RYAN MARTIN AQUINO!
i hope you have the best birthday
&many more to come. you deserve all
the beautiful gifts the world has to offer.
you are a great person & a blessing
to everyone you've come across in your lifetime.
i love you.

always & forever,
Ronylyn

Finals

are already haunting me. 

This weekend's guna be a bust.

Definitely stressful just thinking about it.

FINALS SCHEDULE:

Tues;

Polisci: 10:45am

History of Rock&Roll: 1:30pm

Thurs;

Psych: 8:00am

Not too worried about my psychology final

because I at least got the gist of the subject. PoliSci,

on the other hand, is probably going to kick my ass.

I could thank my jerk of a professor for that. >;[

Absolutely hated how he gave us a studyguide

full of terms & topics that we should know for

the final exam then totally mindfucked the class

by adding more topics. My brain is drowning in

information. I've bottled up (or at least tried to) all

my feelings about this professor. From his unnecessary

catch phrases like "Another thing you should think about"

or "Ultimately" to his monotone-ness. It has all become

such an annoying pet peeve of mine. I could honestly say

that the only reason I'm doing well in the class is because I

took U.S. Government senior year. Little did I know, Mr. Woolsey,

a teacher of a class I could've sworn I didn't learn squat in, 

taught me all the fundamental facts I needed to know

to survive in this dumb dumb class. Music, is also kind of

stressing me out only because there's just too many

people, too many dates, too many genres, too may songs,

too many forms, too many instruments, to remember. ):

Fuck fuck fuck !

Pointless, full of babbling & complaining, whatever.

Back to studying. Back to whining. Back to

anticipating & awaiting 

SPRING BREAK '09 !

To all my friends with finals to study for:

STUDY HARD, BE BRILLIANT,

PROVE TO YOUR PARENTS THAT 

YOU'RE NOT JUST ALL ABOUT 

BULLSHIT & FUN.

You're all in my prayers.

Goodluck ! :]

<3

Invest

"Your education is an investment in yourself,

no one can take it away."

-wise words of a mother 

20+kids. 1 lonely baby. 

card making, babysitting, bracelet making.

busy volunteer day; very fun/exciting.

weather during the day is impeccable.

i'm in love with it.

Quickie

The next week & a half is going to be hell.

Finals next week ! Upside ? Definitely proud

to say that I don't have to calculate how 

many points I need to get on the final in order

to pass the class. All I need to do now, is 

check how many points I need to get in order

to keep my A. (: &THAT BETTER HAPPEN.

I'll make sure it does. Study study STUDY !

Volunteer hours are 3 hours from being complete,

5 hours from being 100+ = 2 points for the

nursing program. But I promised myself & the

hospital that I'd continue going once a week

just for shits, giggles, & that awesome moral fiber. 

Mmm, after spring break that is ! 

Spring change is gunna happen. Even if it means

dedicated time in my room alone. I'm MOVING !

Sike, sorta kinda not really. 

Fire days. Ice nights. I better not get sick

before spring break. >:[

Lookin Up

School's almost over. Next week is my study

week then the following week is finals. 

Yesterday I went to SDSU with Kaycee to

take an exam. Roadtrip in the middle of the week.

Worth it? Definitely. Basically doubled my score

of my first attempt in taking that exam. 

Skipped school on Tuesday to study for the 

exam & I guess it paid off. Found out we had

a Psych quiz today.. didn't study for it

since I didn't know about it due to the fact

that I skipped that class on Tues. YET, I STILL PASSED.

Lucky me. Also, got my music listening exam

today. What was my score? 100% ! 

Updates on future; planning to double major (:

It's an upside to if I don't get into the nursing prog. 

at CSULA. Talk about broadening my horizons. 

If I had the money & the time, I'd study abroad.

Currently, I'm in my music class. Sub is 

unbelievably boring. *snore*

Hate her for keeping us in class the whole time.

We Know

and that's all that matters.

posi: you love me

posi: and i love you

posi: and you appreciate me

On a random day, surprised me with this sweater.

His mama & I are matching<3

REPPIN hunnybee's school cause mine sucks ):

Lent; didn't give anything up this year

but I have made it my goal to go to the gym

more than I have been in the past. Both for

health reasons & the fact that I've become

obese due to relationship/college weight. 

School; more stressed than usual. Primarily

because I made stupid mistakes and overlooked

something I DEFINITELY shouldn't have. My 

consequence: Roadtrip to San Diego State

with Kaycee on WEDNESDAY. Yupp.

Love; We're difficult, complicated, etc.

Nevertheless, happy as can be. 

I wouldn't be in this with anyone else.

<3

Numbers

determine my future.

Make it or break it. 

Today, it broke it.

Ash Wednesday yesterday & I

still don't know what to give up. ):

Maybe instead of giving something

up, I'll be productive. Gym, less

procrastination, keep my room clean

& no jealous cyrus. 

today was a trip. !

Love ain't

"love'll have you nervous, doing stupid shit on purpose

brain out of service, words slurred when you blurt shit

studderin', utterin' non-sensical shit in your verses"

I've never fought for, nor tried so hard

to hold on. But there is no doubt in my mind

that this is all worth every single drip of sweat & blood

in my system. You're worth it. We're worth it. 

We get through these things for a reason.

&I'm here to stay.

1. Don't want to go to school this week.

2. Don't want to take that music listening exam.

3. Want to go back to costa mesa.

4. Need to go to the gym.

5. Need to go on a healthy diet.

list goes on. but today was a good day.

worked 1-7 with kim! :]

paperjams, gossip, family of 13, 

constipated lil' girl, &more.

surprise food for ry.

jubbbbbba's for the ummteenth time.

finished the day off with 

tv, daily massages, &cuddling. 

can't tell, but we were matching.

white top, grey sweater, black bottoms, 

& brown moccasin-type shoes.

wish we could work together more often.

Whatever happens, happens.

I don't want to be here. Here in this hell hole,

this mystery, this cliff hanger we call a break,

this never ending gap that's somehow supposed

to make our problems go away. I don't want to

be here. I don't want to learn how to forget.

I want you to remember, miss, & be in it.

<3

but,

"I can't make you love me if you don't.

You can't make your heart feel something it won't."

Grey's Anatomy/Private Practice;

note to self: we don't live forever,

time isn't on our side.

"Soulbro"

I would like to thank you for showing me

a part of myself that I have never seen.

Yeah, we were young & dumb but it still was fun

and I guess these things just tend to fall apart.

&I hope you feel the same.

You seem like such a big part

of my life and my heart.

but the truth is I've found something new

and she easily towers over you.

<3always.

Speechless

I have so much to say about the way I've been feeling but only one word seems to sum it all up just right: happy. I am genuinely happy with, let's say, about 99.8% of the way things are in my life. And the remainder of that percentage, I still wouldn't change. I need those flaws to keep me striving for better. 

My weekly schedule is still filled with something to do everyday. However, this winter quarter I only have 3 classes, 2 days a week (tues & thurs). Psych160, PoliSci, & American Pop Culture. This is by far the best schedule I've had so far during my 

college life. Every Monday, Wednesday, &Friday I volunteer at the Child Life of LAC+USC Medical Center. I have the best experiences volunteering there and meet the sweetest kids. I get attached real easy and enjoy being able to help them as much as I could. What do I volunteer for ? Well, the nursing program at CSULA requires a minimum of 100hrs of volunteering at a hospital environment. At first I dreaded the thought of having to do so many hours of hospital bitch work. But, lucky for me I don't have to cheat the system because I enjoy what I do. I love working with the kids. I've met some of the smartest, strongest, and most charming kids that range from newborns-17yrolds. Basically, all I do

 is provide them with entertainment to make them feel comfortable and not dread the hospital environment. It's a give and take situation. I give them myself as a friend, and in return.. I get new friends every day I volunteer and feel good about what I did. Unlike some, I'm excited to become a nurse. Hate the process, but I know I'll love it when I'm there and all the hard work will be worth it. 

My bike and I have been on a break. Haven't done a long ride in a while and I'm definitely rusty. Got to do a mini-ride doing laps around Ryan's neighborhood but that was about it. Something's wrong with my ankle but thanks to my school's failure to mail my proof of being a full-time student.. I have no medical insurance and can't go to the hospital to get a check-up. But it doesn't seem like I'll be riding anytime soon; rain's here. Till then, cuddle, movienights, sour candy, &brew. Those are fun.

As for my relationship, we're going strong. He's what I need to get through my hard days. We've spent a lot of time doing homework and studying because we're not all about fun & games. We're a couple with big dreams, & we're doing our best to get there. Are we perfect? Far from it. We still fight, we still have our differences. Who doesn't?

 (you? oh my bad. I bow down to you.) All that matters though, is that we're still in love and get through the arguments.. eventually. Love that boy. I'll nurse him any day through any injury or illness. :]<3>

In a nutshell, I'm still a young lady with big dreams, a busy schedule, &very little free time. I've got a big strong head on my shoulders and I'll continue working hard till I could say I succeeded. And from there, I'll make more dreams & work even harder to achieve those. But so far so good. Knock on wood.

b. fam

whip.

**of course, photocredit: ryanskeet*

New

Year. New frame. New wheels.

New quarter. New classes. 

New hair. New apparel. New feeling.

Constants, changes, improvements. 

I'm moving onto bigger better things. 

&It's the best feeling ever. 

Hello '09. You're slowly changing

my mind about you. Maybe you're

going to be better after all. 

"This is my happy place, fuck the beach."

Your simple words mean more than you think. <33

"Ok"

PATIENTLY,

I waited in my room for a 

knock on the door. 

I sat there, starred into my tv, 

watched the ball drop, listened to the countdown,

held my phone tightly, and prayed

that it would just ring by the time

the ball dropped. But there it was,

the scream of "HAPPY NEW YEAR !"

& firecrackers going off outside my 

window and fireworks exploding

in the t.v. Seconds, minutes, then

before I knew it.. it was an hour into

the new year. My phone didn't ring. 

Not only did I not see you on the last

day of 08, you didn't bother calling

me the first minutes or even the first hour

of 09. So I called, you picked up,

Happy New Years were finally exchanged..

although my "I love you" seemed to

go on a road that lead nowhere back to me.

Instead, I got an "Ok". That hilarious

response to an "i love you" that you see

on tv.. you know .. that "thank you" response,

I would have much rather preferred that.

Instead of an "ok". 

&Here I am. Getting ready to listen to your words.

Getting ready to let my guard down & let go of my pride.

Here I go, getting ready to ring your doorbell. 

Just because you said so.