Thursday, February 26, 2009

Numbers

determine my future.
Make it or break it. 
Today, it broke it.




Ash Wednesday yesterday & I
still don't know what to give up. ):
Maybe instead of giving something
up, I'll be productive. Gym, less
procrastination, keep my room clean
& no jealous cyrus. 

today was a trip. !

Monday, February 23, 2009

Love ain't

"love'll have you nervous, doing stupid shit on purpose
brain out of service, words slurred when you blurt shit
studderin', utterin' non-sensical shit in your verses"

I've never fought for, nor tried so hard
to hold on. But there is no doubt in my mind
that this is all worth every single drip of sweat & blood
in my system. You're worth it. We're worth it. 
We get through these things for a reason.
&I'm here to stay.

1. Don't want to go to school this week.
2. Don't want to take that music listening exam.
3. Want to go back to costa mesa.
4. Need to go to the gym.
5. Need to go on a healthy diet.

list goes on. but today was a good day.
worked 1-7 with kim! :]
paperjams, gossip, family of 13, 
constipated lil' girl, &more.
surprise food for ry.
jubbbbbba's for the ummteenth time.
finished the day off with 
tv, daily massages, &cuddling. 

can't tell, but we were matching.
white top, grey sweater, black bottoms, 
& brown moccasin-type shoes.
wish we could work together more often.


Friday, February 20, 2009

Whatever happens, happens.

I don't want to be here. Here in this hell hole,
this mystery, this cliff hanger we call a break,
this never ending gap that's somehow supposed
to make our problems go away. I don't want to
be here. I don't want to learn how to forget.
I want you to remember, miss, & be in it.
<3

but,
"I can't make you love me if you don't.
You can't make your heart feel something it won't."

Grey's Anatomy/Private Practice;
note to self: we don't live forever,
time isn't on our side.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

"Soulbro"

I would like to thank you for showing me
a part of myself that I have never seen.
Yeah, we were young & dumb but it still was fun
and I guess these things just tend to fall apart.
&I hope you feel the same.

You seem like such a big part
of my life and my heart.
but the truth is I've found something new
and she easily towers over you.

<3always.